I hope everyone had an amazing New Years! I've had a few busy days, and I slept a lot compared to normal. Hence why I am just now getting to my next post five dang days after my first. For some reason I could not fall back to sleep after the husband's alarm blared every minute for the duration of forty-five minutes. Are we ready to tackle the unending array of resolutions we challenge ourselves to year after year? Mine was always my weight. I actually believe that 90% of Americans probably make a resolution to lose weight. What's the point of making a resolution that I will indefinitely disappoint myself. So what I think I'm going to challenge myself to do instead of losing weight is watch my HEALTH and my Family's HEALTH. Make better decisions, better meal options. Pay attention to my body and mind and make notes so I can rehash.
I have MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and I'm getting older and am now beginning to feel the effects and strange symptoms I've never experienced before. For those of you that are unfamiliar with this disease, here's a link http://www.nationalmssociety.org/What-is-MS. Just in case you wanted to know exactly what it was.I HAVE to pay attention to everything. I actually cried for a minute late last night because I went to do something, knowing at the very moment I got up from the couch what I intended to do then ten seconds later found myself standing in the kitchen, not remembering what I was doing. Listed off the things in my head I thought may have been what I wanted to do. Could not remember for the life of me. It is very frustrating and I find myself drawing a blank frequently. My speech has also been affected for the past few months. I have an appointment at the MS clinic at UofM in 2 weeks, so I'll feel better seeing a specialist.
Another half assed resolution I am going to try my very hardest at....being more kind to my husband! No that does not mean more "favors" wink, wink, haha! Well, he'd probably forget all my meanness if he did get a little extra attention. But he doesn't do anything extra when he does get those favors, so sometimes I wonder what the point is! Reward systems don't cut it in this house for some reason. But regardless, I get so frustrated with him, because I expect him to help around the house or know exactly what needs to be done and do the things a man should do, and he just doesn't. BUT HE SHOULD, I'll just try to be less bitchy to him. Yes, this marriage over here has been an incredibly crazy ride, and still continues to be. Though we have improved. But, through all the fighting, and hurting each others feelings, and splitting up over the span of seven years, we still somehow end up just fine. Healthy marriage????? Probably not, but we are the very best of friends and love each other fiercely. I wouldn't trade him, at least not today....well it's still early. I'll let you know later!
Now I really don't have any problems saying what's going on in my life or what I do, and so on. I'm a great Mom and a good wife, so I'm not ashamed of mistakes I may make or what I do. So my next topic for New Years is my behavior with my children. I cuss....at my kids, not purposely....but I cuss like a damn pirate and loudly too! You could say I'm yelling, yep. So did my parents, and I just inherited the trait..cough,cough! I always feel bad, so one of my goals is to:
breathe,then pull my hair out strand by strand, when they are all in the middle of one of their crazy brothers wrestling match.... screaming, hitting, and insulting each other.
I'm not trying to make myself look like an idiot, so don't read this and picture me calling my kids names or insulting them, never happens. I just lose it sometimes and let that mouth go with some s and f bombs. My art teacher in freshman year, caught me swearing and called me "Sewer Lips" for a whole month. So I want to watch how I talk to them and around them and remember how hilariously stupid I thought my mom looked and sounded like when she went off.
But most of all, my number one resolution that I have to abide by is being Mommy as much as I can. My boys are the most wonderful things to ever grace this planet. And the simple thought that God thought so highly of me and loved me so much and pushed aside all my silly young girl mistakes or dumb moves in my life, that he gifted me these three lovely, caring, amazing, and crazy young men! I have worked so much the last few years and so has the husband that we are missing them growing up right in front of our eyes. Especially the youngest, he's four, and the first child that I've not been able to afford to stay home with. And it breaks my heart that his day care provider and teenage brother are caring for him more than I can. I've got to make sure to carve out more time on my day off for special activities. I'm sitting down with the boys when I get home tonight to make resolutions from each of us and design a cool poster board to hang up for a reminder! Maybe my hubby will even participate.
Most parents and children are obsessed with technology these days, us included! We need to be a family and not all sitting in the same room each of us on our phones staring at the latest Facebook post! When I was little, my Dad played cards with us, or we went somewhere, or hell we walked around outside if we were bored! We were active!
Well, time to get ready for work. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!
Jen
